Autumn Wisdom

We took a short walk through our trees yesterday to sort of soak in the late fall leaves and let go of some of the less than lovely energies that had carried over from the rest of our day.

It was overcast and quiet, cold enough to keep most at bay but just right for our two restless souls.

I have not been feeling well lately and my heart being conflicted and focused inward has longed to be away from everything and everyone (Raine being the exception). Part of it is the season that almost begs those that are tuned in to walk away from the busy and begin the process of storing, gathering and settling in for the long winter and the other part of it is this deep feeling of self that says I am wasting my time with certain day to day things and ignoring my true path.

It has been a longing to use my creative side, my talents to support my family and not just work at a job where I make enough, but find no fulfillment. I need to enjoy once again all that I do and not feel like I have to always fit in the good stuff.

I want to look back at my life in ten years and know that the example I set for Raine is one that I am proud of. I want her to follow her dreams and passions because they are right and not worry about how much money that it may bring. I want her to leave behind footprints that tell the story of herself defining life with each turn of the wheel and not let life and modern day expectations define it for her.

I also want this for me and what better way to teach her this lesson than by first living it myself.

I will be making some major changes in the coming year to both my physical person and how I spend my time and energies. I am going to try a few things that I always wanted to succeed at and make them work for me and hopefully by next time this year the way I make my living will be exactly that...By Truly Living.